Monday, June 06, 2005
Big Fat Frump
I've never done the weighing thing (mostly because I'm so unbelievably lazy it's too much hassle to get the scales out!) but I have definitely put on a fair bit of weight. I never really see that much of me as I don't have any full length mirrors at home so generally I think I look OK but out shopping for cheapy clothes I was struck by how tight some of them were over my hips and just how squat I look. I think I have reverse anorexia, I always think I look more attractive than I really am (although obviously not at the moment or I wouldn't be writing this post).
Bleugh. Just feeling a bit mooped at the moment. Still fretting about all the things I have to get done in the next few weeks, especially exams and stuff and just annoyed at lack of money and fun. I don't really have anything very positive to look forward to (well I probably do but at the moment it's shrouded in glum). At the moment the future looks like; Lots and lots of work, no money, lots of thesis writing work, still no money/debt, looking for a job who knows where doing who knows what.
Got really quite depressed the other day when I saw a friend looking totally gorgeous and happy and glam with her lovely new boyfriend. I'm really pleased for her that she's happy and everything but she seems to have it all and it feels like I'm losing it all at the moment.
Hmmm. That's quite enough whinging for one day, if I go on like this much more I'm liable to go to bed and never bother getting up again and I really need to go home and prepare for tomorrow's exam.
Bleugh. Just feeling a bit mooped at the moment. Still fretting about all the things I have to get done in the next few weeks, especially exams and stuff and just annoyed at lack of money and fun. I don't really have anything very positive to look forward to (well I probably do but at the moment it's shrouded in glum). At the moment the future looks like; Lots and lots of work, no money, lots of thesis writing work, still no money/debt, looking for a job who knows where doing who knows what.
Got really quite depressed the other day when I saw a friend looking totally gorgeous and happy and glam with her lovely new boyfriend. I'm really pleased for her that she's happy and everything but she seems to have it all and it feels like I'm losing it all at the moment.
Hmmm. That's quite enough whinging for one day, if I go on like this much more I'm liable to go to bed and never bother getting up again and I really need to go home and prepare for tomorrow's exam.
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I gathered that there was a chance that the packing up, shipping out and moving on thing might not be necessary after all, so I suppose that was one piece of potentially good news, or has that changed again?
Either way, exams will be over before too long and you never know, the sun might even come out.
Hope some of the clouds clear soon.
Either way, exams will be over before too long and you never know, the sun might even come out.
Hope some of the clouds clear soon.
who knows about the job thing. Another big grant proposal has just been submitted but it's pretty random as to whether they think it's a good idea and give you money, a potentially good idea but don't pay out or pants and don't pay out. I'm certainly not holding my breath. Trying to get myself ready for a conference in a few weeks potentially stuffed with people who might employ me.
Thanks for all the hugs. They're much appreciated. Feeling smilier today due to sunshine, a maths exam that went suprisingly OK and a boyfriend who is hoovering the flat as I type.
Thanks for all the hugs. They're much appreciated. Feeling smilier today due to sunshine, a maths exam that went suprisingly OK and a boyfriend who is hoovering the flat as I type.
Oh, it's so horrible feeling horrible. But it does pass Sophs, it really does. Hugs to you anyway. You'll feel better once the exams and things are out of the way. I hope.
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: 4:51 pm
: 4:51 pm
Anyone who has a man doing the hoovering has reason to feel just a little bit happy.
I hope you feel a bit brighter by now, Soph.
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I hope you feel a bit brighter by now, Soph.
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