Sophie's Socks and Stuff

I am in such a strange mood today. I just feel so hopeless and flapping around. I was planning on going to a seminar in my old department so I could catch up with one of the researchers there and find out about my chances of getting the post-doc vacancy he has advertised at the moment but I have totally wimped out at the last minute. I just don't feel like I can face seeing anyone in that department for a while as I know there will be loads of comments and about where I have been, how the writing up is going and stuff. I also don't want to speak to this guy about the job as I'm so scared I'll get turned down for it and with the mood I'm in now, that is probably a very bad thing.

I'm just feeling so tense and worried at the moment and I just can't settle down to do anything and keep my concentration going.