Thursday, April 19, 2007
No Stamina
I can't wait for this week to be over. It's been pretty good and I've been getting on OK at the new lab stuff. I've been getting in pretty early (for me at least) and been pretty productive and good at sorting out stuff. But now it's Thursday I can feel a distinct lack of motivation creeping up at me and feeling really tired. Yesterday was a really long day as I stayed on campus for training which was brilliant, and I was especially pleased to realise how much I still remembered and was able to do proficiently.
It's also pretty quiet in the office at the moment and I've not had that much social/relaxation time. It's mostly been work, thinking, reading and stuff. I know I expect too much of myself and beat myself up for not achieving as much as I thought I could do which just ends up in a vicious cycle of me getting depressed and doing even less work and feeling worse etc etc. Still I gave a lab talk yesterday which went pretty well. I was OK at explaining my data and what I thought some of it meant. And after my boss was pretty good and positive and gave me some constructive comments about how I can be better next time I give a talk. He also thinks my progress has been pretty satisfactory and is encouraging and motivating me to really get on with things and fill in my data now I've settled in and have a pretty good understanding of how the experiments and stuff go.
It's also pretty quiet in the office at the moment and I've not had that much social/relaxation time. It's mostly been work, thinking, reading and stuff. I know I expect too much of myself and beat myself up for not achieving as much as I thought I could do which just ends up in a vicious cycle of me getting depressed and doing even less work and feeling worse etc etc. Still I gave a lab talk yesterday which went pretty well. I was OK at explaining my data and what I thought some of it meant. And after my boss was pretty good and positive and gave me some constructive comments about how I can be better next time I give a talk. He also thinks my progress has been pretty satisfactory and is encouraging and motivating me to really get on with things and fill in my data now I've settled in and have a pretty good understanding of how the experiments and stuff go.
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