Thursday, May 03, 2007
A bit of a moan
Sooooooo tired today. The lab work has been going pretty well. I think I'm getting a feel for it and hopefully I will be able to repeat the proceedures in a month or so to really get it lodged in my brain and stuff so I can breeze through it and get loads of stuff for other experiments. It's been good being in a different lab which has been nice and chilled and things have worked out pretty nicely there. Everyone has been helpful and answered my really stupid questions and stuff. Has been quite good for motivating me with my project and appreciate my fantastic boss even more. He is so highly rated by everyone, it's amazing - but fair.
Other stuff is not going so well though. The boyfriend is poorly again and it's so draining. I feel really bad for him as he's obviously in a lot of pain and it is obvious to see the painful problems developing and worsening. It is just hard for me as I try and be sympathetic to his problems and needs and feel like a selfish cow for resenting him sometimes. It's just hard as I can't really speak to people at work about it and stuff. It is just hard for me to come home after a long day at work and see him laying in bed or on the sofa, having just watched tv, DVDs, computer games all day, and then for me to go to the shops for food/drink, cook dinner, wash up, tidy up, do the laundry etc. He's really good when he is healthy at sharing the chores equally and I know that if he didn't have his problems he would help if he could. It just gets me down sometimes and feels like my life is slipping away a bit and has no fun to it anymore and I don't know what to do.
Other stuff is not going so well though. The boyfriend is poorly again and it's so draining. I feel really bad for him as he's obviously in a lot of pain and it is obvious to see the painful problems developing and worsening. It is just hard for me as I try and be sympathetic to his problems and needs and feel like a selfish cow for resenting him sometimes. It's just hard as I can't really speak to people at work about it and stuff. It is just hard for me to come home after a long day at work and see him laying in bed or on the sofa, having just watched tv, DVDs, computer games all day, and then for me to go to the shops for food/drink, cook dinner, wash up, tidy up, do the laundry etc. He's really good when he is healthy at sharing the chores equally and I know that if he didn't have his problems he would help if he could. It just gets me down sometimes and feels like my life is slipping away a bit and has no fun to it anymore and I don't know what to do.
Labels: caring, home stuff, lab stuff
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